Saturday, March 13, 2010

Our Little Angel

This week has definitely been the most difficult and trying week of my life. On Monday night as I layed in bed, I realized that I hadn't felt Harper move all day. I decided to go in to the hospital just for reassurance. I was sure that they would hear her heartbeat and send me home.
When we got to the hospital, the nurses tried for about 30 minutes to find her heartbeat and they couldn't hear anything. They then did an ultrasound to see what was going on. After the ultrasound, the nurses came in and told me that my little angel was dead. I cannot even describe the pain that I felt at this time. My whole world had been turned upside down. My plans and dreams for my Harper had been taken from me in a matter of moments.
Throughout this experience, Greg and I have been so blessed to have the love and support of our families. I don't know what I would do without my mom, my sisters, and all of those who have helped us through this hard time. Thanks to all of you.
I also feel so blessed to have knowledge of the gospel, and to know that my precious baby is now with her Father in Heaven. I know that she was too perfect to live on this earth. I also know that I will see her again. This brings such great comfort to me and my family. I can't wait to meet her one day, and be able to raise her. Until then, my heart will ache to hold her in my arms. I love my little Haper so much.


Leesa said...

my heart aches for you! i admire your strength and faith!
she is such a BEAUTIFUL angel!!!
please know that you can ALWAYS call me and that im here for you forever! my prayers and thoughts are with you through this difficult time! i love you kels!!

Lindsay Spence said...

Kelsey . . .
I had no idea, I am so sorry to hear about this past week and the trying times you have been through. I feel so bad I wasn't there to support you. Please call me if you'd like to talk. I'd love to take you to lunch when you feel up to it.

I love you and want you to know that she is absolutely beautiful. She was a special spirit to not need to endure this life. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

With love and condolences,
Lindsay Spence

Steffani Dastrup said...

oh Kelsey. I'm so sorry! Harper is absolutely beautiful and I can't imagine the heartache you are feeling right now. I know we don't know each other very well, but please know that I'm right down the road if you need anything! We would love to take little Olivia for a playdate if you need some time to yourself! Please call if you need anything! Steffani Dastrup

Amy said...

Kels.....please know that we are here for you guys! You both are the most amazing people ever and to have to go through such a horrific trial is heart breaking. My prayers and thoughts are with you guys. My heart just aches for you both! And I want you to know that Heavenly Father knew what strong and amazing people you are because he sent you a perfect angel. Love ya Kels!

Suzy said...

I'm so sorry that you have to experience this. My heart aches for you. Rest up and take it slow. Everything will be okay.

Suzy said...

I'm so sorry that you and your family are having to experience this. No greater loss could you feel right now. Rest up and take it slow. Everything will be alright.

Bean There...Done That said...

Sweet Kelsey,
Myken shared with me your tender story yesterday at church, I am so sorry.Please know that you are in our prayers as we pray for our Father in Heaven's most tender mercies to be poured out upon you, Greg and Olivia. You are a very, very special mommy Kelsey, one who created a perfect angel.
Much Love

Ry and Heather said...

You guys are in our prayers! I know we haven't met, but Ryan is one of Greg's highschool friends. If you guys need anything, don't hesitate to call!

Bret and Ashlee said...

Kels- I'm so sorry for your loss. We will you keep you and your family in our prayers. Such a beautiful baby. We are so blessed to know the things we know. Love ya!

kennan said...

i am not okay with this. i just thought out of the blue last night "i wonder how kelsey is doing with that baby?". when i saw sweet harpers picture i knew something was not right and my heart sunk. i called all of my sisters and my mom and we all were heartbroken for you. i am sorry you have to bare this. i am sorry livy doesnt get to have her sister on earth. i wish this never happened..... to anyone. my heart is broken for you.

harper is beautiful and as you know you will get your chance to have her and love her. although, it probably doesn't make this any easier. it is NOT fair or okay. there are no words. i am sorry and you are in my prayers. my whole family is thinking of you and has your little family in our prayers.