Saturday, March 13, 2010

Our Little Angel

This week has definitely been the most difficult and trying week of my life. On Monday night as I layed in bed, I realized that I hadn't felt Harper move all day. I decided to go in to the hospital just for reassurance. I was sure that they would hear her heartbeat and send me home.
When we got to the hospital, the nurses tried for about 30 minutes to find her heartbeat and they couldn't hear anything. They then did an ultrasound to see what was going on. After the ultrasound, the nurses came in and told me that my little angel was dead. I cannot even describe the pain that I felt at this time. My whole world had been turned upside down. My plans and dreams for my Harper had been taken from me in a matter of moments.
Throughout this experience, Greg and I have been so blessed to have the love and support of our families. I don't know what I would do without my mom, my sisters, and all of those who have helped us through this hard time. Thanks to all of you.
I also feel so blessed to have knowledge of the gospel, and to know that my precious baby is now with her Father in Heaven. I know that she was too perfect to live on this earth. I also know that I will see her again. This brings such great comfort to me and my family. I can't wait to meet her one day, and be able to raise her. Until then, my heart will ache to hold her in my arms. I love my little Haper so much.